As many of you know, or may not know, our daughter Lola was born blind. She has beautiful, clear blue eyes. Eyes that I can’t wait to look into in just a couple of months.
This week has been very stressful. As we are wrapping up the final preparations to get Lola home we continue to come across roadblocks that are frustrating and difficult. Gathering finances is a strain right now, but the hardest part of this week has been the lost status of our I-800 paperwork. The I-800 is the first ball that must roll in order to get our travel approval. We sent off the I-800 expecting to have it back by now and it is simply lost in the system somewhere in Dallas Texas. The need to find this paperwork has consumed and angered me to no end. I don’t know what will happen tomorrow but I can’t let this consume me anymore. I pray that it is found and I’m resting tonight knowing it’s not in my hands.
Tonight I read John 9 with fresh eyes… as the adoptive, expecting mother of a child born blind.
John 9: As he went along, he saw a man blind from birth. 2 His disciples asked him, “Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?”
3 “Neither this man nor his parents sinned,” said Jesus, “but this happened so that the works of God might be displayed in him. 4 As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work. 5 While I am in the world, I am the light of the world.”
Oh my. Jesus. You are so good to give me this. My beautiful girl has not yet heard your name but you are displaying yourself in her.
In this passage Jesus goes on to heal the blind man. We do not know if Lola’s sight can be impacted by surgery or therapy. We do not know if God will choose to heal her eyes. But we do know that as her family we have been chosen to heal her heart. Healing and restoration waits. For our daughter… and for our family. You see, we are not whole right now. A part of us is missing, waiting. God is making all things new, He is forming our family in his timing and by his will. We can only wait and pray while he works on our behalf, as He displays his works in us.