In a word. Terrible. In two words? Really awful.
Lola isn’t ready for school. We’ve been home for almost two months. My desire would be to keep her in the attachment bubble a bit longer before trying school. However, she really needs vision services and ESL. She also desperately needs peer models. I also work full time. Just typing that makes me want to scream.
It’s just hard right now. Everything is hard. And please, before you think it, we are not “regretting” anything. We are not worried that God led us down a path that leads to destruction. We know we have found our daughter. Plain and simple. And now we are doing our best to love her and get her on the right track. It’s not an easy thing. But the best and most meaningful things are NOT easy. God calls us in the deepest, hardest situations. And within the pit we see his face. That’s where God lives ya’ll. In the pit. With us.