When you already know

We are in the home stretch. We will be on a plane to China in 15 days. 15 DAYS. The longing, aching desire to meet our daughter will be wiped away. We will finally hold her hand, wipe away tears and begin a very long journey with her. We are going to fold her into our family.

This short period of waiting is full of high anticipation and joy. This time is also filled sorrow. I remember, very well, leaving Ethiopia with our son. So thrilled to bring him home but absolutely broken by the circumstances that brought us to that point. There is no joy in a forever family without brokenness. The loss of a first family is tragedy. It is something that will forever affect my children and our family. There WILL be healing, there WILL be amazing glimpses of God at work but the loss has to be acknowledged in order to bring healing.

Oh my sweet girl. We love you so much. It breaks our hearts that we were not with you sooner. It breaks our hearts that you have experienced loss at such a young age. We are committed to your little life. We are committed to patiently waiting until you can tell us about the 5 years we missed. We love you for everything you are and we are ready for the not so easy nights and the not so easy days. You are amazing, you are special and you are so loved. We pray that your little heart is ready for us. We pray that your orphanage has somehow explained this process to you. And if you aren’t ready… that’s okay too. We will be there with our terrible Mandarin, loving arms and open hearts.


Good News insert! We are now at $2,500 raised!$5,500 to go!




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Erica is an advocate for simplicity, family time, making a cozy home and loving others well. She is the community coordinator for One Orphan, the orphan care ministry of America World Adoption Association. Erica and Calvin have four young children; Elliott, Charlotte, Lola and Liam. They currently reside in Nashville, TN.

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